07/01/23 23:26

Attack of panic. In shop, at work, when alone. Everywhere.

Unstoppable tears. From nowhere. Dozens times daily.

Jesus Christ, if You exists, which I hope - when THIS happens, will You also leave me? At the moment of judgement, when I will ask for mercy and understanding. Will you also not come? Will you be absent? At the moment when I will only count on you, will you disappear?

Please, whisper to Almighty, dont leave me. Please Jesus. Only You know everything. How I surfer in silence. 

Hold my hand. I cant stand this anymore.

Exist. Please