09/01 Sunday 06:19

Went to sleep at 1:30 am. Could fall asleep at all.

Then short dream about Julunia and waked up at 5:20 and cant fall asleep anymore.

And like this near every day. 

8 months without single words from Her.

Think all the time how is She, hope every minute that She will message, giving me some strenght to stand up.

I would jump to the fire to save her. She doesnt want to know me. 

......

Its Sunday night. I close my eyes and imagine that she is next to me, we sleep hugging each other and in two hours we will have our breakfast cornflakes with coffee in our bed.....