09/12/22 23:18

Cant stand this time. Two years ago I spend my only one Christmas time with happiness and love.

I was the most happy man in world. Juleczka was next to me. We visited old town in Warsaw. We celebrated Christmas song, Christmas atmosfere. Love was in the air. Everywhere.

I waited for such a time all my life. And experienced it just one time and never more.

Being aware that I will never love and never will be loved makes this life completely nonsense.

Every day I fell down more. How this mentallity still exists? Or maybe it not. Anymore. Maybe it just body exists. Soul dissapeared.