10/05 07:38 Mother....

10th of May. If my Mother lives, She would reach 65 birthday today. Mother, my One and Only, if You are wherever - I love you so much, I miss you so much, I am sorry for all bad things, I thank for all your life, which you sacraficied for us, and i ask you - tell me somehow what to do, how to contact my Love.

I know that I made unreal mistake to let Julunia just go. As always i showed to much respect instead of I fight. She asked: dont force, I need time, give it to me, so fucking Lukaszek what does? Respect it, let Her go and let time run. In a while for everything can be to late. What normal person would do? Stop her, force to talk, dont let go. But I am always like this. More think about others than about me. Thats why I suffer near all my life.

I have no aim to go to work, to run my life when there will be no hope. For Her. Only for Her.