12/05 19:20 Two women

Today arround 6 pm exactly 6 years ago last time i saw my Mother alive. I spent these days near whole in hospital, She was in very bad condidion, no contact at all. But i was next to Her, i hold Her hands, I saw Her suffering, but breathing. Being. She was transported to hospital 2 days ago even in worse shape, so I remember today I went to the doctor and said: it seems better, seems better. Doctor agreed, but She probably knew what is going to happen. When people are dying at last moment of life they usually recover for a while. The same was with my Mother. I never excpected thay today is the last day i see Her. Tomorrow in the morning I will receive a call... Mum, I love you so much.

Whole day again thinking about Julunia. Every minute. How is She. Maybe this comparision is too much but i see a small one with this situation with my Mother. I dont have a contact, but i know that She is. For now this has to be enough.

Two most important women in my life. And this will never change. 

Love them both. Always.