12/07 so sad 21:45

Worst and worst every day.

In a while I will got crazy. I think about Her every fucking minute. I will never understand the way she treats me. I was awful lier. I was weak. But still I am good hearted man. I was sure we are the same. I cannot accept that I never seen her again and I never talked to her again.

I cannot stop thinking how she deal with this. Was it really so easy to forget and start a new life? She really treated this as a experience? Exercise? Something new? Maybe she already have a boyfriend, really dont know, if it was so easy to forget... or maybe she suffers like me? Hope not...

Cazzo if I have one small signal. I am so sure we would be so happy together, people forgive themselves much worse things, why I always have to meet the worst solution in life.

I am literally dying of missing. My mind doesnt work. My physics is destroyed. I work so hard and my backbone today pains really strong. Few months ago it was never so strong. And I would have received a massage. By her beautiful fragile hands. Which I love. Cazzo I will thing about girl till end of my life, who hates me. I so much love her. So much miss her. God....