13/11 23:56 the most sad birthday anyone...

All my last days I struggled like tiger just to survive till my birthday.

I am totally emotionally, physically, mentally dead. But I hoped. I repeated to myself: survive till 13th. 

She didnt write. She didnt contact. She hates... Who she made from me in her eyes...

Now nothing to wait for. I desire to die. 

One year ago I spent my birthday with the best girl in the world. Now crying whole day. Every day from few weeks without break.

God, please stop this nonsense life. Give power to my Father. Give strengh to Juleczka. Keep them both in health and mental force. Love them. Thank you for them.