19/08 23:48 depressed

Very hard two days. Worked 35 hours yestarday and today. 

Crazy tired coming back to hotel and reading Giulias words from today "something which was lost must be in other place". Meaning is obvious. She thinks her happiness waits for her somewhere but not in me.

Thats unreal sad and depressing. Time doesnt help. She really hates me and doesnt even a little change her mind. 

I will die sad it means. Because I KNOW that my happiness is She. So sad that she doesnt want give herself a chance to get whole life happiness from me. 

Love you anyway. Till the rest of my time.