20/06 very hot Sunday, without Julunia

Free Sunday after many workfull days, especially this week. I slept very few. Unreal hot in Poland from few days. 

Unreal sadness. In normal circumstances having Julunia here we would go to the lake. We never swimmed together, never had fun in water together. I regret it so much. Fucking coronavirus stopped everything. I think I will never go by the lake again. Without Her, like all others free activity have no sense.

In this kind od day: free with marvelous weather I suffer much more, dont really know what to do. Just imagine that She is here, next to me...

Maybe She has new man, maybe She has a lot of fun there. I so much miss, every day more. I cannot stop love...