21/04 first whole day without

I cannot sleep. I cannot stop thinking. I cannot eat. Cant imagine life without Julunia. She is also very depressed. I understand it. I would like to talk if she still is here. But she ask for not. Even if one hundred percent of me screaming to talk to her, i have to respect that J doesnt want. She was and always will be my breath. Living without breathing its not possible.