21/05 21:00 pain is too strong

You came to my life when i was depressed. Few years which dropped me down from normal young life to biggest hole. I didnt see that something positive can happen. Few years of unsinned knock out. 

We didnt talk about everything what was not worthy to talk. I never asked about your experienced and problems with medicines, i just knew you had. I didnt talk about this. I just wanted to have this behind. I waited for it. And now it appears that it didnt happen. I lost myself then of saying about this or not. I fucked.

But you left me in my emptiness like I am piece of shit. Probably I am then.

This emptiness after you is now not to overpass. For me love was love. And always will be. Why I am like this? Cazzo, why I am so stupid and just suffer. Today level of suffering is crazy. I walked a little by the street with head down and eyes in tears. No point to walk not having you next to me. You are everything for me. I am not able to beat it.

And i write it to noone. Just to myself. Cazzo, why you dont want to know me. I cannot believe it....