22/04 17:09 never been so difficult

Time will never heal this hurt.

Coming back from work nos. Work near all time wirh tears. And pictures. Cannot even for one second stop thinking about Juleczka. I apologized man who i worked for and explained him that i am not able to talk, to smile, i will just do my things. Last time i worked for him i just counted time coming back home to see my Princess. I came, we drank a quick coffee and then went for a lamp. What a time it was, i was so happy having someone to come back. Even 4 days ago she loved me so much. 

Now i am checking how was situation one week ago. I was coming back from Sylwek, Julia worked for Bernard. I came back quite late but we ate a marvelous pizza this evening. Last together. We were so happy. ONE WEEK AGO.

Now no point to come back home. What for?

I checked every 10 min if there is any light at phone, maybe she is ready to talk. No and probably never will be. But my hope will never die. Never. She beged me to not contact. I love her so much, but respecting this i somehow have to do it.

Difficult also physically. Not sleep and eat start giving results. What for to live any other hour, day?