25/07 08:42 song from Titanic

How useless is this time?

Woman who stole my heart, stole my life, stole whole me, stand in wrong opinion about me. Because I was fucking coward, weak to face the truth and share truth with Her. Quite understable that she invent a lot of pictures about me, but stand in this till the end of life without trying ti find out how it was.

When my father whole life lied us, my Mother and me about where he is, what he does, which life he leads, I always even against all proofs tried to find a way to justify him, to make him without sin. Even when it was useless. Why? He is my father and I love him. When you love you try to understand even wrong steps someone does.

Giulia doesnt want to understand me. She created image about me and stands in this. And behave like I am dont exist. I dont know what to do. I sent letters, messages, flowers. Everything failed. I let her go, let time run. And nothing. And it will be like this till end of our life? 

This night man at work snored very loudly and I couldnt sleep. I put youtube on and there was a song frok Titanic. First time I heard it since we broke. We listened to it together so many times. We loved this.  But now I focused on words. What words this song have. That love never dissappear, real love always exist, fight, never forget. Mine love towards her will last forever. I will wait for her till my last breath comes.

Every night in my dreams

I see you, I feel you

That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance

And spaces between us

You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more, you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time

And last for a lifetime

And never let go 'til we're gone

Love was when I loved you

One true time I'd hold to

In my life, we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on (why does the heart go on?)

Once more, you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear

And I know that my heart will go on

We'll stay forever this way

You are safe in my heart and

My heart will go on and on