27/10 21:50

Another questions without answers....

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I am very bad mentally today, yesterday. I dont understand, I dont get, how its possible she doesnt want to talk to me, she hates me so much.

She left completely felt in love man. Desert him, let him go down under the water. I never did things she accused me of!!!! Yes, I was fucking disgusting lier, disgusting coward. But I was sure she will leave me. I was sure! Life doesnt give me any respect, better for me would be never be born. I had normal life, then this thing with not my debt came, and when I never expected something like real love can come to my life, it came, was the beautest dream can happen, and then gone like the wind. Of course the worst scenario. In other peoples story woman can forgive so many things, in my of course Love couldnt forgive that I was scarry and lied...

I cant believe this. I am completely under the water now. I so much love her. I think about her every minute after 6 months of not seeing her. Baby....

I do everything I can. I gave all the money to the bank, I started giving back money to the owner. Now I do everything to send her as quick as possible. But I dont know how long I can struggle more... without her I am noone. Without Her I cannot fight. Without Her I have no power. I need Her. I so much need Her love....

Mum, I need your support from heaven. I am really so weak mentally. Without mental help I will fall down and will not be able to stand... This is more close than anytime before.