29/05 tired, so tired

Very bad night behind.

Man snoring loudly from few days in the room doesnt allow to sleep. Tonight was also quite big drizzle after vaccination. I am so tired.

I cannot understand how you can keep on saying everyday over one year how much you love and then leave like this without trying to understand, without trying to put yourself into my position with all my fears after this life experience. Without listening. I cannot.

I put myself many times in your position and yes, i would feel very bad, dissapointed, fucked. But i would try to understand. I would fight for love if I really loved.

I cannot understand....