30/04 21:43 first evening out of OUR room

Difficult day with a lot of tears, farewell to the things made us so happy. I will make once note about farewells in my life, its too much of this. 

I am in a hostel. Cant live longer like this, have to make quick desicion where to go to work. I tool with me just necessery things, including Juleczka hoodies. Many from OUR things from OUR lovely room at Reymonta i put to trash, couldnt take it with me: our games, badminton rackets, kettles, bowls, plates, all puzzles we made, flowers, pan, pond, many dishes, few clothes. All went to trash. The most difficult was to say goodbye to puzzles - we spend so many marvelous evenings making them, dried flowers - all given to Juleczka, and games - till last day gave so much happiness, every evening between 9 and 10 pm we started. Was so difficult to throw them away but what could I do.

I thanked to all things in our pokoj for brang us this moments. Shower for let us taking hot shower in very cold days TOGETHER, floor for let us dance there, microwave for let us make our salads, soups and pizzas. Desk for let Julunia make beautiful art, windows for let us see each other where one of us was going to work. Special thanks i said to the bed - for let us making our 5 min of lie every afternoon, for let us sleep hugging each other, for let us making beautiful love, for let us eat our breakfast in a bed on weekends. I thanked pokoj for gave me the most beautiful time in my life.

Every minute I suffer of thinking where is Julunia. How does she feel, what does she do. Will She ever contact me or for Her I am done? I love her so much, every day more and more I realize than I cannot live without Her...