Monday 04/05 my mind is worse and worse

How to call someone who had someone dreamed about whole life, more than dreamed, unreal, better than anyone can imagine, who loved you one hundred percent, who you hurt so much, that this dream finished without even talk?

How someone like me can still breath, walk, wake up, work, eat, try to sleep?

There is not even one minute in whole day without thinking about Julunia. Where is, what does, and most important how She deal with this. I cannot believe that for Her is easy, She also had many plans and now everything is destroyed. How She deal with it.

I think about Her working, coming back to the room i dont think about googling, watching sport, youtube. Absolutely nothing has sense and never will.

Julunia, moje Kochanie, you dont know it, you dont care about it, but I love you and to the rest of my days, I will...