Saturday 22/05 08:44

Waked up very early as always. Cannot sleep...

I dreamed about past but with a mind which is placed nowadays. So I was in situation in my past but knowing that I am already in 2021. I dreamed about my Mother. About my school. About my work in tv. And of course about Juleczka.

Its Saturday morning. It should be breakfast in the bed. Cornflakes with a coffee. And my Baby next to me. Baby who hates me now that She is not able to send any message from near 3 weeks.

I havent eaten cornflakes since She left. Like vegetables, fruits. After over one year of food habits. My belly is destroyed. Like me soul.

I have no plan for this Saturday. Its gonna be rainy cold day. I will just lie and think about my Princess. How is She, how does She feel. There is nothing worse than broken heart. After all my life, difficult life experience, I see this. I would give everyrhing, clearly everything to see Her, touch Her, hug Her. Like we always hugged. Gentle, with Love. God, this is to be survived...