Saturday evening 22/05 I dont understand...

Crazy painful.

Did I know real Julia? Or she played.

I lied, I fucked. I was awful. I will never forgive myself that I didnt tell the truth.

But what did She do after? Made a sentence, judgment without having listened to me. Without trying to understand. That i was coward. That I lost myself. But in general did I do it for my comfort? For fun? To protect Her. To protect us. It was a mistake, I know. 

Cmon, dont give me a chance to talk? I am so full of pain.

My love to Her will never change or fly away. I just dont understand. I wait every day, every hour, every minute and comes nothing.

Cazzo, I am worse and worse everyday because I dont have a chance to talk. This would give me a relief. Why She didnt even try to understand me? 

I am done...