Wednesday 28/04 20:28
My soul cannot stand it anymore.
Its not like i had someone i felt good with and i lost but i can find another one.do
I lost part of me. We shared everyday acitivity, we shared our souls, we shared everything. And we loved each other. Trully loved.
I fucked totally. I hurted her because i was coward. Because i was so scarry. Its not a justication. Nothing justify lies. Nothing. Julunia has a right to think but i am a bastard, worst man in a world. I was so scarry to loose Her, that i couldnt say truth. I think She would have understood if I told her this at the beginning.
I felt from the start that She is my angel, one and only, someone you can find once in a lifetime. And i was so scarry to tell truth to not lose this chance. You are in idiot man. You dont deserve for anything.
I would never hurt her on purpose. Never. I love Her so much. And i know we would be the most happy couple in the world. We suit so much. I love Her so much.
I dont know where is my Juleczka. How does she feel. What does She do. I cannot stand it. I miss Her so much. So much....