Lukasz trying to deal with life

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One year ago I was being hugged and watched fireworks with Everything next to me.

Year, when I was loved gone.

Last such a year.

Noone will never love me anymore.

I will never love anyone else.

My heart, mind, soul, body will always be connected with my One and Only.

Two years ago I was writing wishes on sand by the Wisła to you Juleczka. We were connected.

Last year we watched moovie, played our games, went for a walk, made love. I was in paradise.

Now I didnt deserve for even one talk...

I will always be connected with you. Hate you feel towards me is ununderstable.

Hope you are fine my Sweetie.

Buon Anno Julunia.

With never ending love.

Łukasz

I need miracle to survive. If I want this? Dont know.

Moment when I cannot sleep came.

Father in unreal bad condition. I cant look how he suffers.

Christmas gifts from Giulia? Removed from everything to be in her even virtual memory exactly these days... Crazy mental pain, crazy, not able to stand.

God, really? Punish, but somehow person can stand. I am to weak for this...

In the name of love I let you forgot me.

In the name of love I listened to you.

In the name of love I didnt write, message, put any photo which could hurt you.

In the name of this love, I let you run your life.

I killed myself thanks to this above, but I let you live instead.

I dont understand anything from last 8 months.

Any of your behaving cannot kill my feelings.

My soul is done and body not able to fight to survive, but until I exist, my only oxygen is love.

Until the end, until I will stop crying, I will love you.

Knowing that noone ever read this diary, noone ever read this wishes, I cannot write to you directly, so this is the only way.

Have a good Christmas time Julunia. Among people who love you. I will stay alone and remind every minute from last year, when I spend only one real Christmas in my life.

Take care of you my Sweetie.

Buon Natale Julunia, Juleczka, my Everything.

Just discovered that Julunia removed everything connected with me from her instagram. All pictures she drawed me.

In all these 8 months dramatic time, this is the most painfull. I am not able to stand from bed.

Time doesnt heal. She hates me more and more. She deleted me even from her memory. This is unreal to stand when I so much love her.

And this is happening in days when I have no contact with F because he is so weak.

Please, kill me now, I am not able to suicide. But I am not able to stand it. Thats incredible...

Lukasz trying to deal with life

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