24/05 18:40
20 days since last time She messaged me.
At the beginning, She needs time. It was shock for Her. I expected at least trying to understand me. At least giving chance to being listened.
I am ready to talk every moment. I am checking post every hour. Still nothing.
My brain is very tired, unreal destroyed. We were not just a couple. We shared everything, every moment. She cutted it so stricktly. Its fucking not possible to live after that. I didnt know what is love. And now i dont if it was good to find out. It was marvelous time. But the time now is not to being descibed. I am literally dying. Without any aim of life. Without any way to go. She was for me everything and it went out without even chance to say something.
When my Mother died, i was full of pain. I lost Her, but i knew i can do nothing. Nothing in my hand. Now i lost my Baby, and its different. She doesnt give me any chance. How much she has to hate my. I really cannot understand it. I am begging whole my soul.
My body and soul are at the level beyond zero. There is no further life like this.