| pn | wt | sr | cz | pt | so | nd |
| 31 | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 |
| 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
| 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 |
| 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 |
| 28 | 29 | 30 | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 |
1060 hours when I last time seen Her at the stop of 33. 63 600 fucking painful minutes. Tears, screams, depression, asking why. Calling myself the worst words. Hating myself.
Zero smiles, zero happiness. Zero aims.
I dont understand many things. I dont understand a lot. I am retard. If its like this, i have no more strenght to fight.
I went toto work but finished very quickly. Cannot moove. Work especially two days ago made my legs unable to moove. And I am used to heavy work.
I can only imagine Julunia making me massage. What a relief....
I am so scarry about having so much free time. Whole day ahead and I am scarry. I lived whole my life alone and I could organize myself. But everything changed. Now I have no fun watching youtube, reading news. Absolutely nothing. I would give all to spend 10 minutes next to Her. Playing games, watching moovie or just being...
I talked to father. He is very weak.
Tears in my eyes. It willbe very difficult day...