31/08 20:04
Today I had free day from work. Something what happens very rarely these days. From tomorrow again few days at work from morning till evening.
Every week I go to our Piaski. Near 221, 56, playground. I go there, look at the windows where I saw Juleczka. I close my eyes, try to imagine that she is next to me. I usually go on Sunday, but if I work that day, I go on the other.
So I was today. It was not bad day about weather, so I went near 221, near 56 and then I decided to go to our las. I havent been there whole summer time. I went to our tree. I felt lost like in life. When she she is not next to me, I am lost. I understood that there is no point to walk in las when She is not arround. The same in life. She is not here, no aim to walk through the life.
Its over four months when I didnt see her. Over two months since last bad, but still email contact. Time runs and she doesnt feel need to write me.
She asked me for silence, said me that if I love I should let her go. I did exactly what she asked for. Even if I think, thats not correct. I love her and will wait till the end of my life. Pointless life without her.