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Extreme tired. Mentally. After this two days in Poland. No power to describe it yet.
On a waye back to Germany.
Today 28 birthday of my Everything. She doesnt want any message from me. All I can do is to write wishes here. To anybody.
Happy birthday Sun. Happy birthday beautest person ever seen.
Travelled 17 hours to Poland.
Just to see for a while my Dad, keep His hand, talk to Him and came back.
Always when I came to visit Him, I went to His house, make a dinner for us, we talked. Now I will go to medical center and I will not hear Him, not see His eyes, His voice. But even this I need very much. Its worthy to spend so much time in bus to spend this while with Him.
Probably I will also go to Piaski. To stand in front od our 56 or 221, close eyes and imagine. My Juleczka there. I will call Her looking into window and imagine that She responds with all Her beauty.
A lot of tears ahead...
Thank you God for this night.
It was a strange dream. But I saw Her. I saw Her face and I heard Her voice. Nothing on this world which I miss more.
Struggling with time. Usually lost.
My Dad is in very very bad condition now. Cant say even one words. Just hold hand when someone visits Him.
Dad, I also want to hold your warm hand one more time. Say you something. Will you wait for me till 20th of June???
I know its very long. For You when you suffer above my imagination every single minute. Wait for me, only if it means that you dont have to suffer so much anymore, dobrze?
I love you Dad...
International Children Day
I have to been kid many years. But till you have Parents, you have piece of child hidden in your soul.
Its difficult to say. My Mother hasnt been here for 7 years.
I still have my beloved Father. From many years its morę opposite. He needed more help with everyday things, than we. Also His head was very destroyed, so I couldnt call and ask for advise, help. But He was always there. I felt always more safe knowing, that even if He is very weak, powerless, He is there. I could call and see Him. His smile towards me, His good vibing to me. His love. I needed Him. After losing my Everything, Juleczka, everyday call to Him was like necessery breath.
Now since beginning of February, so already 4 months, I lost even this. But He is still here. Even not able to moove, to watch, to talk. My Father is still here. I am still a child this way somehow.
All what I wish for me, as a child in this day, is that God will not allow my Father to suffer above human possibility. If His will is so, I will visit my Dad on 20th of June. I will hold His hand and talk to Him, in trust that somehow He undestands.
God give Him power, God not let Him suffer so much. Let me see Him one more time.
Give Heaven to my beloved Mum.
Thank you that I have had Parents who really loved me.