01/06/22 16:36
International Children Day
I have to been kid many years. But till you have Parents, you have piece of child hidden in your soul.
Its difficult to say. My Mother hasnt been here for 7 years.
I still have my beloved Father. From many years its morę opposite. He needed more help with everyday things, than we. Also His head was very destroyed, so I couldnt call and ask for advise, help. But He was always there. I felt always more safe knowing, that even if He is very weak, powerless, He is there. I could call and see Him. His smile towards me, His good vibing to me. His love. I needed Him. After losing my Everything, Juleczka, everyday call to Him was like necessery breath.
Now since beginning of February, so already 4 months, I lost even this. But He is still here. Even not able to moove, to watch, to talk. My Father is still here. I am still a child this way somehow.
All what I wish for me, as a child in this day, is that God will not allow my Father to suffer above human possibility. If His will is so, I will visit my Dad on 20th of June. I will hold His hand and talk to Him, in trust that somehow He undestands.
God give Him power, God not let Him suffer so much. Let me see Him one more time.
Give Heaven to my beloved Mum.
Thank you that I have had Parents who really loved me.