| pn | wt | sr | cz | pt | so | nd |
| 28 | 29 | 30 | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 |
| 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 |
| 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 |
| 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 |
| 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 01 |
Three months ago we started our last night together. Hugging each other. From the back.
This three months now is too much. Depression how it passed that Giulia behaves towards me like this unable me to live anymore. I hope it will be my last night...
3 months ago we came back from unreal beautiful time by the Wisla and at this time we went to play chess outdoor and badminton.
I am looking for Julunia outside, calling her by name now...
We were by the Wisla on a marvelous picnic.
I am dying of missing these moments.........
Whole yesterday spent on looking for a work. I need money to live and to pay my debts. Noone replied, no support. Big pain in head after crying about Julunia. I so much need Her.
With Her, with support from their normai family we would go together to work somewhere abroad. I would work heavily just to have this behind. Like this now its not possible to live anymore.
Why I lied her, why I didnt tell her truth from beginning? Maybe she would have understood. Maybe she would have supported. And together passed this.
I am so scarry what will happen today. Heart pains during whole night. I dreamed about Julunia.
God....
No work now, no money.
I did what I could.
If I at least have ato support from Her... I would have power to fight.
I am at the bottom of spirit. Only miracle can give me power to struggle longer. But I doubt it will happen.
I love you Julcia. I am a good man. Not lucky, but good. I did what I could. I love you.