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Another day without contacy, without surprise.
Depressed...
... like every evening I ask God for three things: that my father will survive this night and without pain, that I will have possibility to wake up tomorrow and that Julunia will have a sweet dream.
My last words to myself every day is: sogni d`oro Julunia.
How useless is this time?
Woman who stole my heart, stole my life, stole whole me, stand in wrong opinion about me. Because I was fucking coward, weak to face the truth and share truth with Her. Quite understable that she invent a lot of pictures about me, but stand in this till the end of life without trying ti find out how it was.
When my father whole life lied us, my Mother and me about where he is, what he does, which life he leads, I always even against all proofs tried to find a way to justify him, to make him without sin. Even when it was useless. Why? He is my father and I love him. When you love you try to understand even wrong steps someone does.
Giulia doesnt want to understand me. She created image about me and stands in this. And behave like I am dont exist. I dont know what to do. I sent letters, messages, flowers. Everything failed. I let her go, let time run. And nothing. And it will be like this till end of our life?
This night man at work snored very loudly and I couldnt sleep. I put youtube on and there was a song frok Titanic. First time I heard it since we broke. We listened to it together so many times. We loved this. But now I focused on words. What words this song have. That love never dissappear, real love always exist, fight, never forget. Mine love towards her will last forever. I will wait for her till my last breath comes.
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more, you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go 'til we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I'd hold to
In my life, we'll always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on (why does the heart go on?)
Once more, you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart and
My heart will go on and on