Lukasz trying to deal with life, wpisy, strona 1

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5 months ago at this time 4:05 I saw you for the last time at the tram stop 33. Last time kissed you and hugged.

Its not a life anymore after.

5 months ago, this day we for the last time played Nicki game, listened to Gaitano, watched moovie, ate together dinner, made beautiful love, took shower together, made a job done before sleeping.

I cannot believe that Julcia cannot forgive and doesnt contact me.

I am destroyed and need real big support from heaven from my Mum to start a new week. I have no power to struggle.

Sogni d`oro Julcia...

Julcia, how are you.

I have to talk only about me, because I have nobody and thats the only way I can express something. Keyboards on phone..

But I every hour think how do you feel. Thankfully you have normal family, who help you to struggle.

Are you quite fine?

I am thinking about going abroad. I have to make money to send you. But I am so bad mentally. I hard struggle to survive every day. I dont know how I would live alone in other country when I am in so bad mental health. I ask myself hundreds time per day your question: people what should I do? Do you remember our jokes and you asking this question.

I have noone to help me with answering this question.

Its so cold, depressing day. I have no work and sit in a hotel room. I really have no power.

Thank you for your being there. Have a good day Julia.

5 months ago after our marvelous Sunday by the Wisla, badminton and chess outside. After we loved.

I am in deepest black depression whole anyone can imagine. Every minute is struggle to fight.

Smile of Juleczka, her voice, hands. Cazzo, Julcia...

Lonelyness is killing me. I was alone whole life. I didnt know love. When she came, I discovered it. And now, after, I cannot come back to live like before. I cannot. And of course I am not able to love someone else.

Everytime when I go to the shop, I take broccula to my hand, and I talk to Julubia about our salad for the dinner. Then I leave it.

I am not able to watch any moovie alone.

I am dying of missing. Crying many times every day. How long yet it can run like this? Not to long.

Lukasz trying to deal with life

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