08/12/22 04:09
I killed myself.
But what is worse, I hurted the most pure soul on this world.
So beautiful, trustfull. How is She, how is She ...
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I killed myself.
But what is worse, I hurted the most pure soul on this world.
So beautiful, trustfull. How is She, how is She ...
Big crisis day.
I would give literally all to hold Her hand and go for a walk, looking info Her beautiful, full of love eyes.
When you touch heaven in your life, you cant come back to earth and enjoy it.
Juleczka was my heaven. Pure like tears.
Nothing can give pleasure after Her. Nothing interests. Before it was watching sports, moovies on YouTube, running. Now nothing.
All I want is to sleep and have Her in my dreams.
One free night in a week.
I cant sleep. Think only about us.
1 percent which helps to struggle is to sing our song.
I publish it on YouTube.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SQSE2jFAHgM
Dont know what for.
Crazy difficult night at work.
Before work I went to sleep for two hours.
And She was in my dream. Again background was real, like it really is. I did what I really did. We didnt see for a long time. But then She came back. I saw again Her with all Her beauty.
Dream was beautiful. After waking up work was a nightmare. I double than normal, which means more than crazy, miss to see Her eyes, to touch Her hand and hear Her voice.
Now I came back home after work and I am going to bed. Maybe dream will come again.
This is what I live for now.