04/12/22 19:18
Big crisis day.
I would give literally all to hold Her hand and go for a walk, looking info Her beautiful, full of love eyes.
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Big crisis day.
I would give literally all to hold Her hand and go for a walk, looking info Her beautiful, full of love eyes.
When you touch heaven in your life, you cant come back to earth and enjoy it.
Juleczka was my heaven. Pure like tears.
Nothing can give pleasure after Her. Nothing interests. Before it was watching sports, moovies on YouTube, running. Now nothing.
All I want is to sleep and have Her in my dreams.
One free night in a week.
I cant sleep. Think only about us.
1 percent which helps to struggle is to sing our song.
I publish it on YouTube.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SQSE2jFAHgM
Dont know what for.
Crazy difficult night at work.
Before work I went to sleep for two hours.
And She was in my dream. Again background was real, like it really is. I did what I really did. We didnt see for a long time. But then She came back. I saw again Her with all Her beauty.
Dream was beautiful. After waking up work was a nightmare. I double than normal, which means more than crazy, miss to see Her eyes, to touch Her hand and hear Her voice.
Now I came back home after work and I am going to bed. Maybe dream will come again.
This is what I live for now.
Yesterday I had very good dream.
Realistic.
My Father was in hospital like he really is. With no contact from 9 months.
Doctor called me and said: I have a surprise for you. And then I heard a voice: Hello my son. It was my Father! He came back to reality. He started talking and thinking again. I heard His voice and first time since 9 months we could talk. And first time since 9 months I heard from someone who I love a lot of beautiful words. I was full in tears when we talked.
Then I waked up and writing this I am again wet...
Its already 9 months and 21 days when we last time normally talked
7 years, 6 months, 24 days when I last time talked with Mum.
1 year, 7 months, 8 days since last talk to my One and Only Woman, Julunia.
Love them three forever, without ends.
And wait for another dream...