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Cant sleep.

Cant live.

Thinking every single minute about Her. How is She...

God, how long else. This miss. This scare. This one side love.

How long

Today we are.

With plans or not, hopes or not, sadnesses.

Tomorrow we are past.

One colleague from work, which worked with me, passed away. He is not here anymore.

What is then important??????

To leave at least one thing, one person who will remember.

After me not even one tear will be dropped. From anyone.

Can anyone imagine anything worse?

Useless life. He has family, people who loved Him. He had to live for others. His death is painfull for many people. Why then not taking me instead of?

Something wrong is happening with my head from few days. I feel dizzy, headache at the back of head, I am losing my memory, its difficult for me to remind obvious things: names of people, events from past. I started to have attacks of being scarried because of something. Many times I lose my balance while staying.

This is terryfying.

She was in my dream again.

Absolutely marvelous 6 hours.

In this black hopelesness days fulfilled only with mental pain and tears, comes sometimes moment of beauty, when I see Her like She is. Smiled, gorgeous, loved.

When I fall asleep forever, will I see Her again?

Cant stand this time. Two years ago I spend my only one Christmas time with happiness and love.

I was the most happy man in world. Juleczka was next to me. We visited old town in Warsaw. We celebrated Christmas song, Christmas atmosfere. Love was in the air. Everywhere.

I waited for such a time all my life. And experienced it just one time and never more.

Being aware that I will never love and never will be loved makes this life completely nonsense.

Every day I fell down more. How this mentallity still exists? Or maybe it not. Anymore. Maybe it just body exists. Soul dissapeared.

Lukasz trying to deal with life

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