23/12/22 22:37
Buon Natale beautest Sweet in the world...
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Buon Natale beautest Sweet in the world...
Cant sleep.
Cant live.
Thinking every single minute about Her. How is She...
God, how long else. This miss. This scare. This one side love.
How long
Today we are.
With plans or not, hopes or not, sadnesses.
Tomorrow we are past.
One colleague from work, which worked with me, passed away. He is not here anymore.
What is then important??????
To leave at least one thing, one person who will remember.
After me not even one tear will be dropped. From anyone.
Can anyone imagine anything worse?
Useless life. He has family, people who loved Him. He had to live for others. His death is painfull for many people. Why then not taking me instead of?
Something wrong is happening with my head from few days. I feel dizzy, headache at the back of head, I am losing my memory, its difficult for me to remind obvious things: names of people, events from past. I started to have attacks of being scarried because of something. Many times I lose my balance while staying.
This is terryfying.
She was in my dream again.
Absolutely marvelous 6 hours.
In this black hopelesness days fulfilled only with mental pain and tears, comes sometimes moment of beauty, when I see Her like She is. Smiled, gorgeous, loved.
When I fall asleep forever, will I see Her again?