04/09/23 04:38
Is anybody on this world alive or dead who can tell me how to live with such a crazy love which never will come back and miss which never will end?????????????????????????????
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Is anybody on this world alive or dead who can tell me how to live with such a crazy love which never will come back and miss which never will end?????????????????????????????
I am every day less able to stand up, make a tea or brush a teeth. Going for a walk is not reachable.
Head is only is past. Beauty past. And nothing can change it.
Today I dreamed about Her. But it was not good dream.
Summer time.
From two weeks sun and more than 30 degrees outside. Best time in the year.
I didnt see sun from this two weeks. Havent been outside. I am not able to go.
Only lie in the bed.
Only want to write here, but also not able to do it.
She was in my dream last night.
I was so happy when I waked up that I saw Her.
Blessed night like this. Reason of one and only happiness when I am unconscionous.
Please come one more time. Next night. Please.
I am still exististing never existed readers.
I dont write.
All was already said.
Every day love and miss are higher and higher.
It has no sense to express everyday the same. 39 year old man crying because of lost one and only love in his life. Who love and miss after more than 2 years like crazy. Who dream about Her. Who watch photos every day. Who cannot stand and run a life. Who lost his humanity and doesnt know why still live when pain and stress is so high every hour. Noone want to see it. So I cry in the room, among my lonelyness. In big silence. Till the end which every day is closer luckily.