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| 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 01 | 02 | 03 |
Summer time.
From two weeks sun and more than 30 degrees outside. Best time in the year.
I didnt see sun from this two weeks. Havent been outside. I am not able to go.
Only lie in the bed.
Only want to write here, but also not able to do it.
She was in my dream last night.
I was so happy when I waked up that I saw Her.
Blessed night like this. Reason of one and only happiness when I am unconscionous.
Please come one more time. Next night. Please.
I am still exististing never existed readers.
I dont write.
All was already said.
Every day love and miss are higher and higher.
It has no sense to express everyday the same. 39 year old man crying because of lost one and only love in his life. Who love and miss after more than 2 years like crazy. Who dream about Her. Who watch photos every day. Who cannot stand and run a life. Who lost his humanity and doesnt know why still live when pain and stress is so high every hour. Noone want to see it. So I cry in the room, among my lonelyness. In big silence. Till the end which every day is closer luckily.
29 years ago in the middle of Italy. By the sea. On the longest day through year.
Was born Juleczka.
Brightest sunshine every reached Earth.
Source of only one good time I had in my life.
Source of beauty who now shines for someone else.
I am not allowed to send you birthday wishes.
Follow will you made to dissappear from your life.
So I write here, to noone.
Happy 29th birthday Julunia. I know you are happy there. Be in good health that's the only one thing I can wish. Beauty you dont need, it will be in you, even when you will be old and far. Stay on health and shine for people arround You.
With never ending love.
Łukasz
I had a long dream.
I had a daughter. With woman who is in marriage with another man. But I had good relation with them and had visiting my daughter there.
She loved me with pure innocent love.
So deep dream.
Waked up and this dream is still with me. And this love...