| pn | wt | sr | cz | pt | so | nd |
| 31 | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 |
| 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
| 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 |
| 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 |
| 28 | 29 | 30 | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 |
Very very hard work these days. My muscles in higher part of legs pains as never before. I barely walks. Look very strange. Two months ago i would have received an unreal relief - massage in the evening. Made by sweet hands of Julunia. Today no relief at all.
And how to compare soul to this? It pains millions times more than muscles. And there is also no relief.
Cazzo how much person can survive. Where is a border...
To Lukasz 2020:
Never start lying
You have the reason or not
You think it will help
No, it wont
Lies never helps
For a while it seems yes
Later destroys everything
There is nothing like good lies
You will not recover later
To Lukasz before 2019:
Never start love
You dont deserve
It will pain
Both
You will hurt
Other are not prepared for this
You are not prepared
You will not recover after being left
Pain will increase every single day
Until you will stop fight
You will lose
Love is stronger than you
Never start love
Very bad night behind.
Man snoring loudly from few days in the room doesnt allow to sleep. Tonight was also quite big drizzle after vaccination. I am so tired.
I cannot understand how you can keep on saying everyday over one year how much you love and then leave like this without trying to understand, without trying to put yourself into my position with all my fears after this life experience. Without listening. I cannot.
I put myself many times in your position and yes, i would feel very bad, dissapointed, fucked. But i would try to understand. I would fight for love if I really loved.
I cannot understand....
Nothing new to write.
Another unreal depressed day. Instead of walking now somewhere together i am in full of depression in a hostel room.
Today I got a covid vaxination, so i am free to go wherever i want, but without her there is no point. Without Her i didnt watch any moovie, didnt go for a walk, didnt eat any salad, broccula. Nothing. Most things had sense only with her. I thought that for her also. I was sure...
To myself:
You are so useless piece of shit, that woman who loved you, dont want to talk to you. Dont want to see you. Dont want anything from you. She hates you. You idiot, will not be anymore happy. You will not smile anymore. You are just piece of shit...