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She will never contact me anymore.

Its 3 weeks without message.

I am destroyed. I am dying crying.

She will never contact me anymore.

I so much love her.

She will never.

God. I dont want to live anymore.

Going to work.

Dreaming whole night about Julunia.

I am just a little scarry that finish is very close.

Blood running from nose. Blood pressure in head unreal high. Stress whole day.

I will never stop writing here. If anyone ever comes to this site what I doubt, please be aware that when my notes stoped from day to day it means that stress won over my body. That it was to much.

For now I am fighting. Do what I only can...

20 days since last time She messaged me.

At the beginning, She needs time. It was shock for Her. I expected at least trying to understand me. At least giving chance to being listened.

I am ready to talk every moment. I am checking post every hour. Still nothing.

My brain is very tired, unreal destroyed. We were not just a couple. We shared everything, every moment. She cutted it so stricktly. Its fucking not possible to live after that. I didnt know what is love. And now i dont if it was good to find out. It was marvelous time. But the time now is not to being descibed. I am literally dying. Without any aim of life. Without any way to go. She was for me everything and it went out without even chance to say something.

When my Mother died, i was full of pain. I lost Her, but i knew i can do nothing. Nothing in my hand. Now i lost my Baby, and its different. She doesnt give me any chance. How much she has to hate my. I really cannot understand it. I am begging whole my soul.

My body and soul are at the level beyond zero. There is no further life like this.

Worst day since She left.

One of the worst in my life.

I can not stand it anymore.

I am really strong man.

Death of my beloved Mother didnt kill me.

Circumstance that I have to pay no my debit didnt kill me.

Being left alone to struggle with this by my family didnt kill me.

Leaving comfortable life and losing work at offices didnt kill me.

Going abroad alone, work physically, having no roof didnt kill me.

Sickness of my father, being robbed by my brother didnt kill me.

Leaving me by Giulia killed me.

Her silent and no chance to being listened is killing me.

Losing love killed me.

Losing hope is killing me.

I dont understand. I dont suit to this world. Think about yourself - saying everyone. I cannot. I am not able. Always about others. And now its time to pay for this.

I am not able to fight anymore. I already lost my power, my spirit fight. This is too much for me. I love Her so much that I am not able to live anymore. I am literally dying... Any light ahead

We teached how to love.

How to let someone being loved.

We teached our bodies. Our weak and strong points.

We teached each other life with someone.

I didnt pass exam.

Przepraszam.

Lukasz trying to deal with life

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