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Archiwum maj 2021, strona 3

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21/05 21:00 pain is too strong

You came to my life when i was depressed. Few years which dropped me down from normal young life to biggest hole. I didnt see that something positive can happen. Few years of unsinned knock out. 

We didnt talk about everything what was not worthy to talk. I never asked about your experienced and problems with medicines, i just knew you had. I didnt talk about this. I just wanted to have this behind. I waited for it. And now it appears that it didnt happen. I lost myself then of saying about this or not. I fucked.

But you left me in my emptiness like I am piece of shit. Probably I am then.

 

This emptiness after you is now not to overpass. For me love was love. And always will be. Why I am like this? Cazzo, why I am so stupid and just suffer. Today level of suffering is crazy. I walked a little by the street with head down and eyes in tears. No point to walk not having you next to me. You are everything for me. I am not able to beat it.

 

And i write it to noone. Just to myself. Cazzo, why you dont want to know me. I cannot believe it....

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20/05 22:52

God, how much I would like to see you, hear you, touch you, kiss you.

 

God, how much I love you. How much miss...

I am not able to live like this. 

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20/05 18:53

I knew from the beginning that i have the most gentle, delicate, fragile second half in the world. And that hurt Her will mean sth uncomparable to anything else.

That She will suffer, She will react unpredictable.

 

But even in worse scenario I couldnt suppose that it will end like this. Without talk. Without see. Without trying to understand.

 

In my meaning of love people dont leave one another when second one fucked. Not so straight. Of course in my meaning of love also people dont lie one another. They can trust themselves. Cazzo. I already admitted this so many times. That I fucked. And i cannot forgive myself.

But dont I deserve at least attempt to understand? To talk? Left me like I am peace of shit. Cazzo, I dont understand it. I loved, love and will love anyway. What She felt? Feels? Why I cannot know it.

 

Silent is never a way. Its sth to cruel. So many question without answers.

Giulia, cazzo, its not a way...

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19/05 20:22 one month after

In monthly anniversary of our last night together, I dreamed whole night about us. She was with me. We were so happy together. Everything was like during this year together.

 

Today its one month we last time seen, talked, kissed, hugged, laughed, loved. We were at picnic at awf, then went to Las, it was beautiful april weather. We walked hand by hand. Then came collapse. And I never seen her again.

 

There is nothing worse than this kind of farewell. Without saying goodbye directly, without final talk. I am always strickt to myself, but why always people are so strickt to me. Am I really so bad? Or just to fair, and this makes me only problem. I dont know. I have been waiting for any message, but silence arround. 

This is the most awful think can happen. This silence arround. Any contact. Does She force herself or by someone to behave like this thinking its a good idea? Or doesnt She really care? 

I cannot believe this is happening. 

 

I will never forgive myself what I did. Keeping this fucking mystery. What the fuck did you do you retard...

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18/05 23:51 one month after paradise

One month after one of the best day in my life. Picnic by the Wisla, marvelous salad made by Julcia, badminton and chess outside. What a marvelous Sunday this was. Now ahead our last night together. Last love. Last hugging from the back.

 

Unreal sad.

 

Now two weeks without any message fron Her. Dont know even where she is. This is so painfull. Not understable. Depressed...

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