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| 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 |
| 28 | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 |
Near 10 months after desert, I dream about you near every night.
Nothing changed and will never change. I think all the time. Cry. Love without end.
I would love to stand up and live but its not possible. Too much.
I died being alive. If you only this can let you live, it was worthy. I do not understand but it was worthy...
Have a good Sunday my Everything...
Went to sleep at 1:30 am. Could fall asleep at all.
Then short dream about Julunia and waked up at 5:20 and cant fall asleep anymore.
And like this near every day.
8 months without single words from Her.
Think all the time how is She, hope every minute that She will message, giving me some strenght to stand up.
I would jump to the fire to save her. She doesnt want to know me.
......
Its Sunday night. I close my eyes and imagine that she is next to me, we sleep hugging each other and in two hours we will have our breakfast cornflakes with coffee in our bed.....
Unreal to deal with miss od holding her hand, sleep hugging each other, play our games, talk to her, touch her.
Every day higher. How to live, how to live...
One year ago I was being hugged and watched fireworks with Everything next to me.
Year, when I was loved gone.
Last such a year.
Noone will never love me anymore.
I will never love anyone else.
My heart, mind, soul, body will always be connected with my One and Only.
Two years ago I was writing wishes on sand by the Wisła to you Juleczka. We were connected.
Last year we watched moovie, played our games, went for a walk, made love. I was in paradise.
Now I didnt deserve for even one talk...
I will always be connected with you. Hate you feel towards me is ununderstable.
Hope you are fine my Sweetie.
Buon Anno Julunia.
With never ending love.
Łukasz